|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| I feel that I am slowly beginning to find my true self. Thanks Blue Arrow.
I am a person who is not easy to break through to. I have built up so many emotional walls that sometimes I feel trapped and directionless.
What are my limits? What are my strengths? What are my goals and aspirations?
Over the next three weeks... I want to open up myself, to become more socially adaptable and to bolster up my emotional competence. I rated "very high" in the emotional sensitivity scale during the PEA. I think these two factors have hampered me as an effective leader, because I am not able to better utilize my emotions to set a positive perspective for myself in the leadership roles that I take on.
"Simple is best!"
| | |
| When someone craves for revenge, the only way to calm their rage and to keep them from falling into the cycle of revenge, rests on how far you can veer their sight towards your and other's love for them. Reach out to them and show that you care. Let them understand that it's not worth the time and energy to hate, loathe, and think of someone who is not important to you. Find peace and tranquility in the refuge of someone who they really care about.
| | |
| Finally! I woke up this morning, anxious and nervous for the day ahead - The Leadership and Lifeskills workshop will begin!
Damn, I'm so nervous though. I am always like this before one of these events or large social get-together happens. I am actually not a very socializing person in a group setting. I tend to not speak out too much. I also find that I am unpredictable, because sometimes when I am confident I would speak out more, and other times I would huddle away in the corner and listen to people talk. This inconsistency has irritated the nicest of people that I know. This is one of the reasons why i am accepting this challenge to go to LLS, because I want to learn more about myself, to find out where I stand and how I can move forward and improve myself as a person, and as a leader.
My feelings are ambivalent to the workshop just now. I don't know what to expect, and I am nervous. There's three more minutes before I have to take off for the class in HKU campus. There's butterflies in my stomache right now. I can feel them. I feel like I don't want to leave the house, because I am so comfortable here, shielded from society and from hard-ships. Shit! I can't think like that, and I don't want to. In order to excel, I have to step out of my comfort zone and put myself in a situation where I am forced to change, learn, and improve. Human beings are lazy by nature - well, a large majority of them are, and those who are not are the leaders of today. It takes guts to be able to do something that you are very uncomfortable with, but thatyou know will produce a positive result and make a difference in society. Remember, if you are to improve as a person, to be more selfless, courageous, and strong, then you will be able to improve others as well and influence others to be as diligent as yourself. Step up to the challenge and be a man. I will become a great leader!
On another note, gotta meditate more to dissipate my anger and enforce more patience in my mindset.
| | |
| Finally got a chance to play ball with my brother yesterday. We played full-court which was very tiring, but we managed to do very well in every game and killed the other team in the first. We had strong defense, but did not have enough chemistry to make solid offensive plays. The guys we played against were rough. I had a finger nail stabbed right above my lips, which bled and I had to use a bandaid. Then after the games I found scratches on my arms. One of my friends there had it tougher than me. His biceps had a blob of red spots, which were popped blood vessels. It looked like a teeth mark when you looked from a distance... haha. I need to rehab my back first before I want to get serious with ball. It feels good to chill out and enjoy my time on the courts. I don't have to worry about anything, but just challenge myself physical and mentally on the court.
Troubling thoughts...
Not once was I ever mentioned in your blog. Damn.
"I'd rather suppress my feelings and screw up my insides, than choose forgiveness."
I got to sit down to meditate and have more patience.
| | |
| I had an insightful and inspirational experience today, helping out at the Sustainable Development Workshop held in Ap Lei Chau. I had a tough time getting there, because I had to wait out in the sun, in 33 degrees celsius weather, at the bus stop. Luckily for me, my friend advised me to take the 671 bus at North Point instead of Diamond Hill, so that shaved off a whole thirty minutes from my trip. When I finally got on the bus at NP, I was soaking wet in my sweat. I was drenched to my underwear. I cooled off very quickly though, because the air con on the bus was very high. The bus ride was much faster than I had anticipated - it lasted twenty five minutes from the point I hopped on to drop off. I arrived on time at the Hoi Yee Community Centre that was located next to the East Wing Commercial Centre.
After set up, we had a quick briefing session on the run-down of the whole project and the workshop for the day. The area that was under review for redevelopment was the Wong Chuk Hang public housing area that comprised of around 6 hectares. The site is surrounded by the Police Academy training centre to the east, a GIC of low-rise buildings to the west, a urban river to the North, then followed by a light industrial area (zoned as OU(1) - 120 mPD and OU(2) - 140 mPD) and this site had a flyover that was built during the industrial age of Hong Kong to accommodate the high traffic volume but now was underused, then there's the Aberdeen Country Park on the hillier areas at North, there's Ap Lei Chau to the South with all its amenities and clean environment, there's also a cluster of sports complexes to the North East as well.
Guests started registering and sitting down at their respective tables at around 2pm. Everything settled down at 2:30pm, and the workshop began with Dennis (Deputy Project Manager) starting an introductory speech.... damn it. Enough with the description. What I learnt today was how a community planning workshop functioned. What required to be set up, how many people to help out based on the expected people showing up. Like what equipment to bring and what exactly is meant by "logistics" now. There were also a lot of creative ideas brought up through the group discussions which were presented at the end of the workshop. There were five groups and all of them had unique design ideas and approaches. However, they were all geared towards economic growth in the district, rather than sustainable development through sustainable community and sustainable tourism. The ideas they presented don't necessarily hit on sustainability. In fact, some of them are counter to this. I did however like the idea of beautifying and utilizing the urban river that is now polluted and odorous. Establishing continuity on the site to connect all of the present attractions and activity nodes through paths, bicycle routes, an escalator, and removing the flyover in teh industrial area were good ideas in the right direction. The groups identified an asset and used it to their advantage. The idea of creating a large commercial node in the area, like a super mall, was repeated in the plans for all of the groups. This was disappointing though, because I believe there are better ways to create vibrancy and diversity in the area than through the conventional and dull commercial developments. Adaptive re-use of the light industrial area would benefit the community and create more "public space". I believe extending an MTR line (which was proclaimed to be much light-weight than the bulky trains on the other side of HK island) was mentioned to jump-start the development there. I question though who will have the power to control what gets developed if a MTR station is built there. Don't the MTR, which is a government-owned company have a larger stake in the development ownerships then? What's also scary is that some of the community members, people who live in the area, seem to have this tendency to encourage a quick-fix, economic boost instead of long-term sustainable development in the district. Many of the district councilors held this mentality adamantly. There were a lot more ideas presented, which I have no time to recall and write down. But I was definitely inspired by how the brainstorming process was facilitated. The turn out for the workshop was miraculous. At least seventy people appeared and many others just dropped in to listen or give opinions. I later found out from a colleague that it took the team around one year to rally all the support and establish rapport with the local leaders and community to stir up such a big crowd. Nice work! I will try to make it for the next session in July 14th to learn more and understand the thinking patterns of the different types of Hong Kong people.
Do you know what friends of benefit are? I just learned the phrase.
A friend of mine told me a story about his experience with a rebound relationship that struck deep in my heart. Damn.
| | |
|
